by cici reagan | Apr 27, 2020 | addiction and recovery, lifestyle and wellbeing
Trigger warning: mentions of abuse, domestic violence, addiction, and suicide. What is PTSD? When you experience a trauma, your brain prioritises danger responses (getting your heart rate up, preparing to fight or run, etc) rather than processing what’s...
by cici reagan | Apr 6, 2020 | lifestyle and wellbeing
everything is stillbut also moving-vibrating in placewith fearand productivityand anxiety wearing a mask. I hearthe sound of lawnmowers,of children laughing,dogs barking,and everyone is home.it could almost be a holiday,if you closed your eyesand wished really hard....
by cici reagan | Dec 31, 2019 | addiction and recovery, lifestyle and wellbeing
Three years sober Quayside, NCL Surgery day Post-surgery Starting my own business, Brilliant Estate Planning The coast Artists in Recovery show at Tynemouth Preparing for my first ever show Out with business friends A birthday party Best friend Two year wedding...
by cici reagan | Apr 18, 2019 | lifestyle and wellbeing
if my life is a movieas i walk down the hospital hallsthe music should fadeto that weird non-silence,that deafening, low vibrato of nothing. it reverberates through my brain[even though it doesn’t exist.] the sun is shiningas it rainsand the puddles splash...
by cici reagan | Feb 17, 2019 | lifestyle and wellbeing
I’m doing my best, but very rarely does that satisfy me.I still have this picture in my head,This idea,Of the uber-cici, the ultimate me,Who can do all the things all the time and never slow,Never stop.This is very problematic and unrealistic,I’m aware,But...
by cici reagan | Jan 31, 2019 | lifestyle and wellbeing
About a week ago I had laparoscopic surgery to diagnose and confirm Endometriosis. Spoiler alert: that’s not what happened. history I’ve had pelvic pain that has grown more and more severe over the last 12 years. Doctors, those who would listen, have done...
