by cici reagan | Nov 6, 2018 | addiction and recovery
My depression has a soundtrack. It sounds like a racing heart, So fast that nurses hook me to machines Just in case. Just to check. It sounds like Music blaring in my ears while I walk through town, The Cranberries and Amy Winehouse and The Dresden Dolls Serenade me...
by cici reagan | Oct 16, 2018 | addiction and recovery, lifestyle and wellbeing
Recently, I went back to the states for a three week tour of my old stomping grounds. I had some amends to make, a hurricane to work around, and a lot of emotions to feel. North Carolina I flew into Raleigh, North Carolina. I’d had an early start-...
by cici reagan | Aug 14, 2018 | addiction and recovery, lifestyle and wellbeing
Lately, I haven’t been feeling my best. Between mental health issues and Endometriosis flare ups I sometimes forget who I am. This has been one of those times. I have this cyclical hunger thing. I’ll be absolutely ravenous one week and then hardly eat at...
by cici reagan | Jul 10, 2018 | addiction and recovery
My sober date is January 1st, 2016, but I’ve been in and out of recovery for much longer than that. My father was in a 12 Step Program when I was a kid, and that was my first foray into the world of recovery. It did not go well. He was going to meetings and...
by cici reagan | May 5, 2018 | addiction and recovery
sometimes i look out the window and realize how far away i am. time is a farce but distance is real and i wonder if home is still home or a harbor for change so i’ll, eventually, return to a memory of a ghost of what old stomping grounds felt like beneath my...
by cici reagan | Jan 9, 2018 | addiction and recovery
they said i am a joy. they see me through eyes unknowing and brand new- i am competent, and capable. i used to watch Home Improvement with my father. he said it was funny, so it was. i thought what he thought. i was adorable on demand. i was lots of things on demand...
