by cici reagan | Apr 27, 2020 | addiction and recovery, lifestyle and wellbeing
Trigger warning: mentions of abuse, domestic violence, addiction, and suicide. What is PTSD? When you experience a trauma, your brain prioritises danger responses (getting your heart rate up, preparing to fight or run, etc) rather than processing what’s...
by cici reagan | Jan 9, 2018 | addiction and recovery
they said i am a joy. they see me through eyes unknowing and brand new- i am competent, and capable. i used to watch Home Improvement with my father. he said it was funny, so it was. i thought what he thought. i was adorable on demand. i was lots of things on demand...
by cici reagan | Jul 29, 2016 | addiction and recovery
A year ago today, I published a poem along with text messages from my father, outing him as an abuser and an alcoholic who refuses to take responsibility for his actions. I was always there for him and remain unappreciated. I have forgiven him for what he has done to...
by cici reagan | May 19, 2016 | lifestyle and wellbeing
I shouldn’t be scared. It’s the middle of the day; I’m surrounded by people. But there’s two men On this train That make my hair stand on end And the thing is, You just can’t really trust people. You just never know. Man number one Is stood to my left on the platform,...
by cici reagan | Mar 24, 2016 | addiction and recovery
Maybe it’s an age thing Or a woman thing Or an addict thing But it’s a ludicrous thing To not know Your own mind Or to lack confidence In your opinions. I’m always Looking over my shoulder. Always asking What someone else wants, Or feels, or needs, Or double checking...