my depression has a soundtrack

my depression has a soundtrack

My depression has a soundtrack. It sounds like a racing heart, So fast that nurses hook me to machines Just in case. Just to check. It sounds like Music blaring in my ears while I walk through town, The Cranberries and Amy Winehouse and The Dresden Dolls Serenade me...
food noise

food noise

Lately, I haven’t been feeling my best. Between mental health issues and Endometriosis flare ups I sometimes forget who I am. This has been one of those times. I have this cyclical hunger thing. I’ll be absolutely ravenous one week and then hardly eat at...
7 things to expect in recovery

7 things to expect in recovery

My sober date is January 1st, 2016, but I’ve been in and out of recovery for much longer than that. My father was in a 12 Step Program when I was a kid, and that was my first foray into the world of recovery. It did not go well. He was going to meetings and...
thoughts from Costa

thoughts from Costa

sometimes i look out the window and realize how far away i am. time is a farce but distance is real and i wonder if home is still home or a harbor for change so i’ll, eventually, return to a memory of a ghost of what old stomping grounds felt like beneath my...
erasing

erasing

they said i am a joy. they see me through eyes unknowing and brand new- i am competent, and capable. i used to watch Home Improvement with my father. he said it was funny, so it was. i thought what he thought. i was adorable on demand. i was lots of things on demand...