Today

Today

“They don’t have to understand,” she told me. I had expressed my concern about disappointing my people, about being in and out of the AA rooms, about backsliding and bringing my sorry ass back. I hate the crestfallen looks on their faces. I wanted to know how to explain the struggle to those who haven’t experienced it. “It’s about your sobriety. It’s not about anyone else. You don’t need to talk to them about it. Tell them to ask you in 6 months, in a year.” You could have knocked me over with a feather. In fact, it never occurred to me that I didn’t have to answer people’s questions. That I didn’t have to answer to anyone else about my journey. That my perceived failures are my own. That it really isn’t anyone’s business. For me, this is a hard one. I don’t...

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