carnage

carnage

by | Jan 20, 2015 | relationships

I stand beside The burning remains Of my past life. Every broken promise, Every lie, Every insult, He ever hurled at me. His t-shirts I slept in, Photographs Of smiling faces With dead eyes. The flames Melt the flesh From his face. It bubbles And wrinkles And sinks...
oblivion

oblivion

by | Jan 19, 2015 | addiction and recovery, loss

Mommah Never got To see me sober, She saw me In pain, Pretending I was fine. She knew better. I wanted her To feel better about leaving So I faked strength And drank myself Into oblivion. Maybe, to some, My ‘rock bottom’ Doesn’t seem so dark. I have a home, my job, a...
visceral

visceral

by | Jan 15, 2015 | addiction and recovery

*Trigger Warning: self harm, eating disorders.   I’m cici, And I’m an alcoholic. This is my humble confession. Control, I’ve found, Is a farce. It’s who you allow to dictate to you, Or who you don’t. It’s what you tell yourself When you decide not to eat. Or throw it...