Hollow

Hollow

What is it about the holidays that can make you feel such complete joy and hopefulness yet still be empty and depressed at the same time? Decorating the tree this year was a little different. The man-friend put up the tree and the lights the night before, and went on a golf trip, so I was alone. Typically, we would do this together, listening to Christmas music and drinking egg nog like we always did when I was a kid. But I liked it. I watched Love Actually (one of the best movies of all time) and hung ornaments. I dug through boxes from mom’s house and pulled out some of her old decorations. It was nice and quiet- kind of a bonding experience with myself. And I thought- I never saw this coming. Not in a million years if you had walked up to me seven years...

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